January 2020 an exercise in failure
It's slightly after 10 pm on January 31st and I sit here reflecting the past month and everything that I wanted to accomplish but didn't. We all make our own choices and all of mine revolved around how I handle stress and stick to my goals during such a time and the truth is that this past month I failed in more ways that one. It was my own self control and my lack of discipline that has put me into this spot and I fully realize it. It is my blame to shoulder and I don't have issue with it. What I have issue with is that I really had no discipline this past month. Even tonight I caved in, even though I tried really hard to just fight it. Tonight was better than what I wanted it to be though. I really wanted to leave work and hit up Jack-in-the-Box and get some of those delicious mini tacos and come home and slam them down with a few beers. That is not what happened and it took a big fight with myself but I drove home and felt better about life. I...