Nothing is off the Table (Except the Cookies)

Yesterday I ate all the things.  Before I could make it to work I was unusually hungry.  I've been eating my one meal every day at work and I had plans on going at least 24 hours yesterday, but it all went awry when I just couldn't shake the feeling of hunger in the morning. So, instead of waiting until I got to work, I decided that I would eat lunch and then go for at least 24 hours by skipping my normal meal at work.  All was fine (and dandy) until I got to work and for some reason I was just in an off mood and decided to make some bad decisions.  I had a snack before work which was highly unhealthy and high in calories. Once dinner time at work hit my entire day had been steadily going downhill and I ended up eating a bag of chips for dinner.  In my mind, the whole time, I knew these were bad decisions but I really just didn't want to stop myself, so I didn't.  I knew that there would be a gain on the scales the next morning and I could just regrou...

Today at my office job a very happy client sent over this amazing box of gourmet cookies.  I've been doing great at avoiding junk food and my hunger has been under control but something in me got excited when I saw these cookies. One of my co-workers cut down the middle of a chocolate chip cookie and it looked ooey and gooey and warm and moist and the chocolate looked like it melted on the knife.  My desire for one of these amazing looking cookies bolted to the front of my mind. I looked at my watch and then realized it wasn't going to give the information that I was looking for so I opened my fasting apps and saw that I still had 30 minutes until my 18 hour fast was up. I decided at that moment I was going to sample a cookie.  I didn't debate it.  I didn't contemplate whether or not I should have one.  I decided I was going to eat one. The only thing that I did in concession, was tell myself that because I was going to sample this delicious looking tr...

Yesterday I struggled early with a headache but still managed to hold steady and complete my fast.  I really felt like it was a great big success and I was mentally celebrating the win. After I got to my evening job an issue was brought to my attention that there was some product needed for an install which, for various preventable reasons, was not present but was desperately needed for our installers to complete the job.  All solutions backfired and now we were left with one super fun solution for the fat man; a trip across town in triple digit heat and bad traffic to pick up this product and then bring it back to our store so the installer could finish the job tomorrow (which is now today) and the customer remains happy.  And, just who is the right man for the job?  I don't know but he wasn't available so I ended up taking one for the team and volunteering to make the trek. Let's start with the positives: 1 - I got to be out of the store for a couple of ho...